I like C# 2.0/2005. My code is pretty… and well-commented… and complex… and.. I’m GOING F’ING CRAZY!

Seriously… remember when I made my Argh post at the beginning of the month? I’m still working on that project! It’s insane. Instead of doing the usual “put the fire out” hack job, I’ve been trying to make the application absolutely perfect, including having reusable classes that can be used in other applications that I know I’ll need to rewrite later.

I can’t even remember how many times I’ve changed my estimated date of completion. Surprisingly, my supervisor doesn’t care, but the “Director of Operations” keeps pestering her with requests for status. He knows the answer, but he keeps doing that. Every now and then, he’ll ask me directly. I stayed some crazy hours the week of the 14th (67 to be precise - not my record) in hopes of getting it done sooner. Nope. I managed to complete more of it, but everytime I think the finish line is in sight, it moves away. I can’t catch it! I’m going to be staying late tonight to try to get it done.. maybe.. hopefully. Man.. people are going to be pissed if I don’t get this done soon.

This place is stressing me out so much that I don’t really accomplish anything before lunch. Then, when I get home, I usually take a nap. Once I get up, I don’t feel like doing anything even though there are so many things I do want to do. I stay up for a few hours, eat dinner and do nothing, then go to bed to start it over again. I’ve got an alternate self trapped in my head banging on the walls and screaming to be let out, but I just have to let him be.

To make matters worse, I got a staph infection 3 weeks ago in the most inconvenient place of all - my right buttock. That’s right.. I have to sit on the thing! Last Monday, the doctor “lanced” it (more like sliced it open), drained it, and packed it with tons of gauze. I went back the following Wednesday and Friday to get the packing replaced. During the first week and a half, that thing hurt. Sitting on it for many hours at a time royally pissed it off, but I had no choice. But, it started hurting less at the week went on, and I basically quit feeling it by the weekend.

Per the doctor’s instructions, I took the packing out on Sunday. So far it looks like it’s quit draining, but it’s quite a large hole. It’s kind of freaky, really. I’ve been taking Bactrim (probably Bactrim DS 800 mg/160 mg) since I first went to the doctor on January 18. Those things are huge, super-chalky horse pills. So chalky, in fact, that they leave powder on my hands when I dump them out of the bottle. They start melting as soon as they hit my mouth. They taste extremely nasty.

I was taking it twice a day - once in the morning and once at night. Last week, the doctor told me to double it. So, now I’m having to choke down two in the morning and two at night. I think I have a day or two left of them. I’ve got an appointment on Friday at 1:30pm for the doctor to see how it’s doing. Hopefully that’ll be the last visit. All of these visits and prescriptions and various OTC things have cost money.

Well.. better get back to coding..